So I went to see my family physician a week ago and he has given me medication for my depression and I am starting to feel a little bit better already.
The day after that, we found out that our 14-year-old Boston Terrier, Athena, is dying. Since she is so advanced in age, as a family, we have decided not to take “heroic” measures, but by her blood tests, they believe she may have a tumor, possibly on her spleen. They told us she probably only had 24 hours to live, but it has been almost a week now and she is still with us! They have us pain medications and also steroids, to boost her hunger and energy. The first day, after we brought her home, she just slept, probably because they gave her her first dosage of meds at the facility and she was extremely tired. The next day when we woke up she was ravished and ate a can and a half of dog food! We were elated. But other than that, she pretty much just laid in one spot all day. She did not go to the bathroom. The next day she ate well again, and we had made her a nice bed out of a bunch of blankets and put a puppy pad on top of that and she did go to the bathroom on the pad, number 2 (hope that is not being crude) but she did not urinate. Finally, on day three she got up and walked to our computer room where we have an area set up with puppy pads for all of our dogs in case they need to go at night or while we are gone, we were so happy and surprised and she has been going in there at least once a day since to go number one.
So, tomorrow will be a week since she went to the vet. We have been praying for healing and we know it is in God’s hands and His timing. We are just thankful for the extra time the Lord is giving us with her, lavishing her with attention and love.
But, on a different note, I have been thinking a lot about my 11th-grade year, the bad things I did and how I wished I had grown up in a Christian home and would not have been out “looking for love in all the wrong places” as the song goes. Below I am posting a song called “Redeemed” by Big Daddy Weave…the words to that song, thinking about my past mistakes, that is how I have been feeling recently, but I know that God has forgiven me, but sometimes it is hard to let go of the past, even when we know God already has. BIG DADDY WEAVE: