Until about the age of 14 I was extremely sheltered. I rarely went outside to play, was not allowed to get dirty (which is why I think I have developed so many allergies!). My only friends were my 3 male cousins, the children of my mom’s sister. I was particularly close to my cousin Stephen. While his two younger brothers would go outside to play with trucks, play in the dirt, Stephen preferred to spend his time with me, which I loved! We were like two peas in a pod. We would role-play, pretending to be the Supreme’s (he was always Diana Ross!) . Of course he would later determine he was gay, which explains the whole Diana Ross situation, but I truly loved and cherished our time together.
But only being around family members did cause a lot of problems for me. I remember being in kindergarten, I think, and my class had gone next door to join that class for a time of singing. We were all sitting cross-legged on the floor; eventually, I had to go to the bathroom but was too afraid to raise my hand and bring attention to myself to let someone know, so I peed my pants. I sat there until it was time for us to go back to our classroom and when I would not get up, my teacher came over to me (the class was almost empty now) and that is when I told her. She was very kind and discreet about it, contacted my mom, who came and got me. But I was horrified that it had happened. I was just so afraid of people, having only been around family members.
This happened to me again the following year. The school had taken the door handle and lock off of the bathroom door, I guess so no one would lock themselves inside. When I got up to use the bathroom a female classmate advised me she could put toilet paper in the hole where the door handle use to be and she could lock me inside. Yes, I know, I know! But like I said, I was very sheltered and apparently very gullible to boot! So, again, I just sat in my seat and wet myself. Again my parents were called. I was so embarrassed when I went back to school the next day. Little did I know this would only be the beginning of many troubling, embarrassing moments in my life.